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So, a couple of weeks ago something momentous happened. No, I’m not talking about the referendum. I found out, after a couple of weeks of quite acute worry, that I did not have breast cancer.

The story goes like this. There was once this woman, lying in bed who had a knackered back because deadlifting a 50k barbell 55 times followed by 55 wall balls (6K ball) followed by hitting a time-cap on a rowing machine row, isn’t always the brightest thing you can do.

So there I am, awake-ish with a case of the ‘owwies’. My hand flops over and, where I think my bra strap has rubbed, I find a small lump. I woke up instantly. Note to self: must invent the Terror Alarm Clock where you scare the shit out of the perp somehow because fear is a fabulous motivator. Anywho, after trying very hard to unfeel ‘lumpy’, I had to admit that it was there and probably shouldn’t be. I didn’t make an appointment to see my GP for about a week. You know, I was busy, it was nothing, I was…I was a big old chicken.
To paraphrase Mr. A Eldritch, “[It] don’t exist when you don’t see [it] (or acknowledge its presence”. Yes, yes I know. I’m a dick, but we all knew that anyway.

So moving on.
I finally got round to making the appointment to see the GP who I was sure would tell me it was nothing. Only she didn’t. She didn’t say that she thought dear old lumpy was cancer, she just said it needed checking out. It was a sobering moment. I’m so in awe of people who keep their shit together who DO have cancer or any other crappy life threatening illness/disease. Seriously, IN AWE.

I didn’t tell the sprogs, which was tough because every time I looked at them I was wondering if I was going to be leaving them sooner than I wanted. None of this was helped by the fact that I’m a writer and have, if not a finely-honed imagination, a pretty vivid one. Also someone quite close had just come through a gruelling course of chemo/ operations and all the related shit, whilst juggling work and the needs of a young family. She’s doing well now but it was pretty dark at times.

I also found myself at the funeral of one of our co-worker’s wives who I’ve known for a fair few years. She was a lovely, kind-hearted woman who was finally killed by breast cancer. Not a fun place to be at the best of times, even less of a joy-fest with lumpy snuggling up under my armpit, ticking softly…

My appointment to go to the breast cancer unit came quickly. Kids, boys, teens, old farts like me and even older farts were there. Some had brought their game face, other’s their brave face, some, quite rightly, looked like they could hear that damn scythe being sharpened in the next room.

It’s grim, but the staff were wonderful. WONDERFUL. Not so much the techy, doctor/surgeon types, I mean the nursing staff. Don’t get me wrong, the techy surgeon types (all men that day) were  jolly efficient. Hurray for efficiency! We love efficiency when it comes to lump fondling and scanning and shizz. They just had Zero clues about how excruciating it is waiting to see if your lump baby is naughty or nice. But hey ho, the nursing staff make up for it a hundred fold. They should be worshipped like goddesses.

The whole world glowed when they told me lumpy wasn’t cancerous. It was sunset and ice-cream and kittens and my first kiss, all rolled into one.
Tomorrow I’m having a wee operationette, which is a bummer because I hate coming round from anaesthetic, not to mention those tights, yuck! But, hey, I know I’m a lucky daughter of a gun*. So yeah, there was a referendum, people lost their shit, some crowed, some cried. *shrugs* Currently life is good. It got me thinking though that if I did cark it there was so much that I hadn’t said to the kids, hadn’t talked about in general, hadn’t discussed. So, without getting too deep and meaningful, but with that thought in sight, I’m going to try to blog a bit more and give very many less shits about those things I used to give shits about (that really aren’t worth the bother).

In other news:
I think I’ve written a pretty good short story.
I’m working on a novel that I’m ghost writing, feedback thus far is good, so that’s nice.
We’re going on our jollies to Orkney soonish. I am ridiculously excited about it because I’ve wanted to go there for years. The other half is also super excited because Whiskey.
The veg garden is blooming, all the foods belongs to us. In the aquatic department, the tadpoles are still more tadpole than frog. I think they’re hanging on to their tails because we’ve built them a pretty nice gaff, in fact, I think we’re spoiling them, still when my froglet army rises up to take the midlands it will have been worth it.

Youngest is playing a mystery game that is hugely addictive and has thus far encouraged him to develop his web/internet fu and get much more exercise. I must avoid said game in all ways except as escort/walking buddy because I could see me playing it a lot.

Inkflingers writing group is still a hoot. We met last night, had a good old chinwag and shared some of our work with each other. T’was grand, very much looking forward to next month.

Now: Curry.

*obvs small chance of dying under anaesthetic, in which case I’m not quite the Mrs. Luckypants that I thought I was am I?

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SOWIDITMSTLTIWAE* (abridged version)

Well, I’ve been writing, just not blogging.

        I've also been gardening. I say gardening; I actually mean hard landscaping a mahoosive area, trying to combine two gardens into one, with (hopefully) a Skyrim-ish twist, or at the very least, with an added dash of fantasy. Anywho. At the moment it looks like the Somme. We’ve dug a bijou amphitheatre for messing around with swords in and suchlike shenanigins. We’d also like to build a cob summer house. Now, this is easier said than done as our ‘soil’ is pretty much sand and pebbles. Apparently in the Triassic period a river ran through it. But I needs clay goddamn it! How else will I be able to build a Yoda-meets-hobbit stylee summer house?

        You may have noticed that I have not been blogging. This is something I intend to remedy forthwith as I know you’re all dying to know what crazy antics I get up to when not sitting in an office...writing and er...digging dirty great holes in the garden. The excitement, it never starts.
I’ve just got back from a flying visit to Nine Worlds Geekfest. Alas, we could only make it for a slice of Saturday then off early(ish) on Sunday. Such a shame because it is simply lovely. The venue was the Radisson Blu Edwardian which is on Death road, AKA the Road of Despair, the Avenue of the Damned, That-liminal-place-between-flights-that-grabs-your-wallet-by-its-tiny-breasticles-and-squeezes-it-until-blood-pours-forth-and-all-the-dosh-and-joy-are-slurped-up-by-the-corporate-leviathans-that-hunker-beside-the-runway Street.

        In short: Nine Worlds is a great con for all things geeky, but the Radisson is a truly awful venue. Don’t get me wrong, it’s clean and shiny (although our room smelled of cigarette smoke), but the service makes Faulty Towers look slick. Also, London prices, which bite harder when the service is sooo slow (except Shivani(SP?) who did coffee at breakfast, she was lovely). The bar however was a joke. And, it’s a weird place, badly laid out. Its feng and its shui are proper bu hao. Anywho.

        I now know something of fanfic, of which I knew next to nothing before. I watched the Gemmell Awards, which was short and sweet, and mostly spent the rest of the time catching up with lovely folk, failing to catch up with lovely folk, and talking about swords, and books, and comics, and larping, and games. I also picked a few worthy brains re: publishing shizz, and feel that I’ve gained a tick in my ‘how to develop your writing career’ box. I’m pretty confident it’ll go up when I roll as I’m starting from a preeety low skill level;)

        However...All is not lost in the writing dept.
My second novel, Breed has been shortlisted for the British Fantasy Society Best fantasy novel (the Robert Holdstock Award). Now, I know some of you might be quite surprised, nay, shocked by this, but I can promise you dear friends, it’s nothing compared to how stunned I was when I heard I was on the shortlist via the miracle of da Twitters. Just to be in such fine company is an honour.

        *cue violins*. I’ve only ever won one thing before in my life. It was an Easter bonnet competition somewhere in the wilds of Preston, at a local youth club. I was about seven and visiting a family friend. I won a box of Maltesers. But, oh my! It was a controversial decision. Some of the mums, who had spent the morning ‘helping’ their kids glue tiny replica ponds (complete with ducks) onto bonnets, didn’t think it was proper for an outsider to win, or even take part, especially since I had done nothing other than make and stick about a thousand tissue paper flowers onto my hat  until it could takes nay more. You should have seen it. It was a riot of colour, frivolous, garish. I put my heart and soul into it— lost a morning to that ridiculous labour of love.
But I digress.

        I’m a finalist for an award. I’m stunned. Don’t mistake me; I think Breed is fucking awesome. It’s like Shrek, its got layers but you can read it cover to cover and not even think about subtext if all that malarky don't float your boat and all you want is a fast fun ride. If you *do* like that deep thorts kinda shizz, it’s there, lurking like an Easter egg (or bonnet, maybe?) hidden in the game.

        I also have a story in an anthology that’s up for the Best Anthology Award. The book is, The Alchemy Press Book of Urban Mythic 2. My story is called For the Memory of Jane. It’s Norse myth in Yorkshire, tha’ nos. I feel entirely legit writing this, as a friend once pointed out to a Scandowegian chum of ours, “We’re descended from Vikings. You’re descended from the wusses who stayed at home.” And finally, re: awards. Both Alchemy Press and Fox Spirit (Breed’s publisher) are up for the award for the Best Independent press. I know I should be all cool and blasé about this sort of thing, but I’m not, I’m thrilled, tickled pink, and as over the moon as a premiership footballer.**

        In other wordy news, I’ve been writing a lot of short stories, the majority of which have been politely rejected, but some lucky few have been accepted. Win some, lose some, eh? Writing and subbing short stories is helping to make me a better writer, (I hope) and also helping to inure me to rejection. No matter how nicely it’s done, having a story or novel rejected is way more painful than a knife in the thigh. I say thigh instead of gut, because I’ve never been stabbed in the gut.
I mean, first world problems and all that, (not being stabbed, that’s fairly serious whichever world you’re in). Rejection hurts, and I don’t mind saying so, because I’m not some kind of super, Buddha-Jesus, teflon-coated Zen machine. Ah gits the sadz when a story is rejected, but you know, in a sick and twisted kinda way, it just makes me want to try harder.
I think it’s basically because I’ve always had a bad case of the Marty McFlys. I recall once, this big girl was kicking the crap out of me (we had such larks on the estate). I wouldn’t stay down, despite her polite, boot-punctuated requests for me to do so. A bigger boy came along and chased her off, but I swear, I would rather have died than stay down. Stupid really, but there you are. I am a bit stupid and quite pig-headed. Pain is a spur, you know? No coward soul and all that.

*Some of what I did in the months since the last time I wrote an entry.

**I will most likely be as sick as a parrot when they announce the winner, but in the words of Roy Batty, “Not yet.”

New Christyule year..tide..thing

It's been a year of several halves and a bit of a curate's banana to boot, but hey, it's just a ride so what can one expect?:)
Peace love and fun, y'all.

Broad with a Sword Strikes Back

(Crossposted) Published November 4, 2013 | By KT Davies

Yes folks that’s me; a woman who owns swords. Heck, I even use them from time to time*.

“Write about what you know” they say, so upon occasion I write about women who use swords, like in my debut novel The Red Knight.

But that isn’t all. Oh my no. I also write about women who don’t use swords, likewise men, and the odd half human half-lizard type individuals. In fact I write about all manner of beasties who do and don’t get their shiv on from time to time.

I’m all about equality me. So when ‘broads with swords’ is even mooted as a ‘thing’, I get a little…Ohmyfuckingodswhat?! about it.

I mean seriously? How othering is that for Grud’s sake? Would Guys with Swords be an issue for debate? Noperoonie. I don’t think I’ve ever seen that question posed any where or when. So why, in the 21st century, is Broads with Swords even a topic, other than to make it seem weird and wrong and other?

It forces the point that there are men things and there are women things, and broads with swords is just plain wrong, EVEN IN GENRE LITERATURE. Dragons? Fine. Magic? Go for your life. Rape and pillage? Oh, yeah we love the grimdark. Women with swords? OH MY GOD! HOW MAD IS THAT!?

That this was even up for debate I find disappointing. That women writers engaged with it, likewise. NB: I strongly believe that everyone has a right to their opinion.

That one panellist said that female characters who use swords was a cliché was…odd.

I’m (clearly;) not the grand high Wizard of Words, so I thought I’d check that cliché meant what I thought it meant, which it did:


1. a trite, stereotyped expression, sentence or phrase, usually expressing a popular or common thought or idea, that has lost originality, ingenuity, and impact by long overuse, as sadder but wiser, or strong as an ox.

2. (in art, literature, drama, etc.) a trite or hackneyed plot, character development, use of colour, musical expression, etc.

3. anything that has become trite or commonplace through overuse.

Now, I certainly haven’t read ALL THE BOOKS, but I’m pretty sure a handful of sword wielding female characters do not a cliché make.

In fact, I’d go so far as to say that people saying women with swords is a cliché is in fact the cliche because I’ve heard it a fair bit of late. And surely, since we’re slinging cliché grenades around, aren’t there more male characters wielding swords than female? Which brings us back to the 1950’s ideology that there are men things and there are women things. That people advocate this viewpoint (or seem to) is pretty sad given that it’s 2013 not 1320.

And in the real world, I don’t think of myself as a cliché, or those women I know who engage in pointy shenanigins. But this isn’t the real issue that I have with this…thing.

It is primarily that it is regarded as a thing at all, and thereby worthy of serious debate that I have trouble with.

I, as well as everyone with eyes and ears and a brain in between, know that women in the real world do pretty much the same stuff as men. Y’all know that, right? In fantasy and SF we accept a whole boatload of weird and wonderful shit that simply doesn’t happen in the real world. So why single-out women who get stabby as something other and unnatural?

If you want your women characters to save the world with the power of tea, great, go for your life, enjoy! If your protag is an arch diplomancer, I’m happy for you; go in peace. If your heroine heals the universe with the power of love and cupcakes, fine. It’s all good in my book. The more variety, the merrier.

And that’s the thing. It’s all good… isn’t it? Or perhaps I missed the memo where it said only certain character and gender roles are acceptable for men and women in genre literature. If so, could someone please point me at the Proscribed list? That would be doubleplus good.

Not only are women with swords not a cliché, but like onions and Shrek, good, stabby fem-chars have layers. Whatever. At the very least, they should be no more worthy of note for merely existing than men with swords. That’s reasonable, isn’t it?

I would therefore ask that, rather than engage with othering perfectly valid characters (and real, living people;) That folks of all flavours channel their energies into the quest for equality rather than alienation.

*My swordy CV

I practiced Kendo for about eight years off and on. I’ve done oodles of re-enactment, sometimes with a musket, occasionally with cannon, sometimes with a bow, and much to the detriment of music, a drum. I also study European martial arts and have even dabbled in mounted combat which I suppose makes me a broad with a horse and spear as well.

I also do other things, ‘cos like all good characters, I like to think of myself as well rounded ;)

The Merry Wanderer of the Night

And even though the hour is late, I do not refer to mi sen.
Today I went to the Student Guild Hall of Brum uni to listen to Robin Hobb speak n' read. It's nice, innit? Loving the Costas on site.

I also got a book signed, not my first by this author. I think Mr. Manby might recall (or not as he's nearly died since then) going to a book signing of hers avec moi many, many moons ago in...Huddersfield was it?

Anywho, today she agreed to be interviewed by me for SFCrowsnest which is grand, more than grand, it's a proper cool thing. I mun choose mi questions wisely.

Later this week I'm going to World Fantasy Con in Brighton. It's one of those, many birds with one stone kinda gigs. I also said I'd do a review of it, 'cos I am way behind on other reviews.

Speaking of gigs. Bristol-Con was great fun. Not only did we get to see chums, but I was on a panel with Mark freaking Buckingham *pause for fangirl moment* I'm a big fan of his work, so that was cool.

The house is very slowly taking shape. I confess; I'm ignoring the unfinished bits in favour of those that are finished. I'm sure I'll get enthusiasm for DIY back at some point before Yuletidemasss...FUCK! IT'S ALMOST YULETIDEMASS!!!

I done a blog interview...thing.

I was asked some questions, I answered them. http://iuchiatesoro.wordpress.com/